Are Emotions/Feelings Scary?

•September 21, 2016 • Leave a Comment

Good afternoon! I have been carrying around a notebook for a couple days to write down my thoughts and feelings, as they come to me. I am hoping to one day write a song about my feelings.

Marriage:

Marriage is a relationship built in deeply-rooted feelings with a foundation of trust in one another. We break down the walls/barriers we have built up to protect our emotions and become vulnerable with one another. A successful marriage, in my 8 years of experience comes with open communication; expression of your feelings every step of the way.

Feelings, where do your feelings come from? Talk with your spouse about these feelings and then discuss why they are there. Your spouse should be able to address their feelings without getting an immediate reaction. Listen, slow down and listen to what they are telling you. Feelings are always valid whether or not they are logical. You will grow as an individual and as a couple from these conversations. We want to learn to understand one another because no two people are the same. We marry another person; a person different from our self and we share everything. Share feelings, share experiences, share hard times, share good times and continue to respect one another.

We have had our ups and downs throughout our marriage but nothing has changed our dedication to one another. We are dedicated to this relationship and we continue to keep our marriage rooted in God. We pray for one another and try to let God control our communication. God knows what your spouse needs to hear to be uplifted, motivated, loved, and respected.

It might sound illogical but I hope and pray that you find a partner that you can be completely vulnerable with; you know they are there to protect your emotions as we go down this bumpy road called Life.

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Personal Reflection:

I am at a stage in my life where I am constantly trying to find my inner passion; find “Allie”. I am a wife, yes; I am a mother, yes; I am an office manager, yes; I am an organizer, yes. But what is my true passion? What makes me tick?

It was recently pointed out to me by my lovely husband that I need to get back to hobbies. I used to be involved in EVERYTHING and then when I had kids, my “me” time took a back seat. I don’t need to go out every night and party; I do appreciate the time with my family and use my strengths as an individual in those circumstances. But I want to use my gifts; do what God has called me to do.

I have been praying, spending time in music, and journaling my thoughts to help learn more about myself. I love inspiring others with my words and song. I was gifted with a beautiful voice, so I am feeling pushed to pursue this area.

Where does my voice take me? My voice can be used in many different ways, I don’t want to limit myself.  What CAN I do, not what SHOULD I have done? There are endless possibilities! I now embark on this adventure into voice over. I am taking a class online and I hope to start pushing myself to get out there.

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These are my thoughts for the day. I hope that something I have said helps you in your journey through life. We need to embrace the idea of emotions and feelings because there is much growth that comes from talking about them. Don’t let your emotions cause immediate reaction but be OK with them! There is so much to be discovered about yourself.

 

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Feelings: They Create a Lens for How We See the World

•September 20, 2016 • Leave a Comment

Good afternoon! I am at home today with a sick child, so I felt inspired to write about the experiences I have had over the past month.

My husband is the leading male role in an upcoming musical. I am proud of his dedication to the role and how passionate he is about doing the best job possible. He wants the audience to “feel”. The difficult aspect of this endeavor is that he has a family. Emotions and feelings are all over the place these days.

From what I have been told, actors go into this “imaginary world” to create this “experience” and live it out with their cast members on stage for the “real world” to see and feel. They create relationships, chemistry, and feelings in this “imaginary world”, so that it can be portrayed as “real”.”You have to practice all the time… everywhere; living in that imaginary world.Even though it’s the real world, in your brain, you make it imaginary. You put yourself in the imaginary circumstances constantly, and see how you feel, how you act, how you react; you get used to that and then… it gets easier to do it on stage” says Chad.

The problem with this process is that the imaginary world doesn’t exist, the actions are still in the real world. Therefore, you are doing actions in the real world that are perceived and felt differently from various people in your life.

I have been supportive, emotional, strong, weak, sad, proud, and tired. It is a range of emotions that are all caused by actions within the acting process. The line about “right” and “wrong” has gotten blurred. They are an actor; explain away. But they still live in the real world; commence feelings.

“I am afraid to talk to you about what is going on.” How you express your actions can put someone at ease or on defense or worried or sad and on. The range of misinterpretation is wide when it comes to emotions. We can have a different emotion than the person right next to us who saw or heard the same thing. Why? How can the same words be used for AND against us?

Recently, we have started to analyze where our feelings come from. Why are you sad about that idea? Are you afraid? What causes our brain to react to what someone says or does? It has definitely helped us grow in our relationship because we are getting to the heart of these feelings. Do you truly trust another individual? You can say you trust someone but honestly look in your heart and find out how you would feel if they did something that is on your line of “wrong”. Are you sad, hopeless, or angry? Why? A lot of our emotions have been developed by society. We react a certain way because of what we heard in church, how we saw our parents react, what we saw on tv, or read in a book. But that also proves the point that feelings are not always logical. We feel because we care about someone or something. Do we know the “Why”? Not always.

The hard thing about being in a relationship with an actor is that line. These actions are still “wrong” but in the context of acting, are they really?

We have risen to new levels of trust as a couple. Honestly, a big truth we have conquered is this idea of surface-level feelings vs deeply-rooted feelings. Our marriage is deeply rooted in love, experience, and trust, so it reaches farther than the surface-level feelings you can create for someone else. I may not be the most level-minded wife all the time but we are keeping such an open line of communication through all of this that our feelings are constantly being heard and talked about.

I am glad that this is just a hobby for my husband and in 2 weeks, it will all be over. However, it does make me think about the world of acting…

Parenting Mindset

•June 14, 2016 • 1 Comment

I read an article this morning written by Amy Mccready, “The One Simple Phrase to Change your Parenting Mindset Forever”. It spoke to me and my crazy every day life. She opens the article with “Let’s be honest. We love our kids to pieces, right? But parenting is exhausting – especially when we add in sports, extracurricular activities, family obligations, keeping the house in order, getting a semi-decent meal on the table, our own jobs – and oh yeah – having any semblance of a life. Sometimes it feels like we’re barely surviving rather than thriving.”

Exhausting is right! I work a full day and add the commute to that; I am worn out by the time I HAVE to pick up my kids from school. I HAVE to pick them up, HAVE to get them home, HAVE to make a good dinner that everyone enjoys while juggling the kids running around the house, HAVE to give them a bath before bedtime, HAVE to spend time with them even though all I want to do is lay down, and then HAVE to get them to bed while reminding them to brush their teeth. Most nights, I HAVE to give them some outdoor time since I do want them to enjoy the summer weather. That word, HAVE; it definitely creates a negative perspective on parenting. Amy was challenged to shift her “internal conversation” from “I have” to “I get to”.

I GET to see my children after school and have quality time with them EVERY day while we drive home. I GET to fix them a meal every day to help nourish their growing bodies. I GET to clean them every night and prepare them for the next day of learning and growth at school. I GET to see my daughter succeed at riding her bike outside and accomplish her goals of getting faster and stronger. I GET to kiss them goodnight as I tuck them into bed and ask God to watch over their sleeping bodies. Amy puts it, “I get to be part of taking my child from infancy to adulthood and hopefully share a whole lot more after that.”

Wow, they really are my little ones only once and for such a short time. I GET to pick them up every day from school right now but one day they will be driving on their own. I wont see them every day in the future; I wont see my daughter fall and pick herself back up on her bike every day. I GET to be such a big part of their lives right now and that is truly a gift.

Yes, there are days where I am worn out from their needs but it is worth it, right? It is totally worth it. I appreciated what me and my husband talked about one day before our first child came. We decided that there would be a period in our life where we would be leaving parties early, saying “No” to a fun gathering, and going to bed late because of grocery shopping or laundry. But it would be worth it, we would embrace the needs of our children during this period because they are only our little ones for so long. I remind myself every day that these are a few precious hours each evening that I have with them so maybe we eat dinner outside while Kailyn rides her bike, we take a bath just to have fun in the water but oh no the hair didn’t get washed, and I tell myself to clean the dishes later so I can run around with them.

Next time I am exhausted and worn out from a long day, I hope that I can lean on God to lift me up and think to myself “I get to”.

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Paleo Chocolate Zucchini Bread

•November 7, 2013 • Leave a Comment

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INGREDIENTS:

1 cup of almond butter
1-2 TB cocoa powder
1 cup shredded zucchini (squeeze excess water out of the shredded zucchini)
2 large eggs
1/4 cup grade b maple syrup
1 TB pure vanilla extract
1 tsp apple cider vinegar
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp sea salt
2 TB mini chocolate chips

INSTRUCTIONS:

1. Preheat oven to 350F.
2. In a medium bowl combine the almond butter, eggs, maple syrup, vanilla, cocoa powder, and sea salt and blend with a hand held mixer for 2 minutes on medium speed. *whoops, I forgot to do this and just stirred it with a wooden spoon and it came out great still!*
3. Add baking soda and vinegar (will fizz up) and fold into the batter.
4. Stir in shredded zucchini. If really watery, squeeze out excess water.
5. Place in a greased 3.5″x7.5″ loaf pan. You can use mini loaf pans too, just fill 3/4 full.
6. Top with 1-2 TB of mini chocolate chips.
7. Bake for 23-28 minutes if you have mini loaf pans and 35-50 minutes for large loaf pan. Start testing with toothpick at 35 minutes and when it comes out clean when inserted in the center, it is done.
8. Allow to cool on a cooling rack and serve!

Creamy Chorizo Potatoes Au Gratin

•October 6, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Creamy Chorizo Potatoes Au Gratin

Ingredients:

Directions:

  1. Pre-heat oven to 400F.
  2. Grease 9×13 baking dish with your fat of choice. (I recommend coconut oil)
  3. Layer the bottom of the baking dish with potatoes.
  4. Pinch off bite-sized crumbles of your raw chorizo and layer those on top of the potato layer, using half the available chorizo.
  5. Sprinkle half the diced red bell peppers over the chorizo layer.
  6. Continue layering the casserole with potatoes, chorizo, and red bell peppers until all have been used.
  7. Pour Homemade Creamy Queso evenly over the top of the casserole dish.
  8. Cover the casserole dish and bake the casserole in preheated oven for 45 minutes. Remove cover and continue baking for an addition half hour and check to see if potatoes are fork tender. (If not, continue cooking for up to another 15 minutes.)
  9. ENJOY!

ImageBefore Baking

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Finished

Creamy Mexican Cheese Dip

•October 6, 2013 • 1 Comment

Creamy Mexican Cheese Dip — Without Velveeta!

Ingredients

  • 1 egg yolk
  • 1 Tbsp. arrowroot powder 
  • 1 Tbsp. milk (whole milk from grass-fed cows!)
  • 1 C. cream (from grass-fed cows)
  • 1 C. milk (whole milk from grass-fed cows)
  • 8 oz. grated cheddar cheese (where to find cheese from grass-fed cows)
  • 4 oz. cream cheese (Horizon Organic is what I used)
  • 14oz. diced tomatoes & green chiles, drained
  • salt & chipotle chili powder to taste

Directions

  1. First, create the thickener that will bind the cheese together and keep it from turning into a nasty, oily mess when it melts. Mix egg yolk, arrowroot powder, and 1Tbsp. milk until smooth.
  2. Next, pour cream and milk into a saucepan and warm over medium heat. Gently stir in the thickener and continue stirring until the cream starts to thicken.
  3. Once your sauce thickens to your desired consistency, add in the grated cheddar cheese and small spoonfuls of the cream cheese (homemade from grass-fed cream is best). Lower heat to medium low, then continue stirring until the cheese melts and you have a deliciously creamy sauce.
  4. Now for some flavor. Remove the sauce from heat, and stir in the tomatoes & diced green chiles. Then add salt and chipotle chili powder to taste, being sure to stir everything until evenly distributed.

Chocolate Zucchini Snack Bars

•September 7, 2013 • 1 Comment

A yummy chocolate treat laced with hidden zucchini. 🙂

Ingredients

  • 2 cups shredded zucchini
  • 2 cups whole wheat pastry flour
  • 3/4 cup honey
  • 1/3 cup cocoa
  • 1 tsp sea salt
  • 1 1/2 tsp baking soda
  • 1/2 cup applesauce
  • 2 tsp vanilla
  • Optional: 1/2 cup dark chocolate chips

Directions

  1. Preheat oven to 350.
  2. Mix all ingredients well.
  3. Pour into a 9 x 13 greased baking pan.
  4. Bake at 350 for 35 minutes. **

** I baked mine for 35 minutes and was left with more of a cake like consistency, as opposed to gooey brownie. Try reducing the time by 5-10 minutes for a more gooey baked good.